my great feat! :]

i'm leaving

but i wont be gone forever... it's just two months :]

chinese new year was good!
the economy has evidently grown more prosperous
gauging from the increasing value of
useful paper within useless paper :]

well just wanted to show you what i've been busy with!
i was bored to tears (literally)
cos i had nothing to do for like the first 2 weeks of feb
so i got a 2000-piece puzzle from jon lew
and i fixed it up within a week :]

let me show you!

right now the puzzle is sitting on the bed
looking pretty
and gathering dust

jon says we can frame it up
and donate it to some children's home

ooo..
does this make me a philanthropist? :]

oh well... but that wont be till i return after 2 months

i'm leaving

but i wont be gone forever :]

panic panic!

i went shopping today! it was SO tiring... i'm very lousy :(

but it was mostly stuff for my sister...
bought tops, nice slippers and contact lens solution for her...
and the rest of the stuff i bought were medication i needed
for my Doulos trip:
diarrhoea pills (when face turns white)
panadol (when face turns red)
lozenges (ehh...)
motion sickness pills (when face turns blue)
insect repellent (before skin is decorated with red polka dots)

it's super rare that i can find nice slippers at charles and keith...
they havent had nice footwear for really long!
but i came across 2 really nice pairs today!
if my sister doesnt like them, i'll be wearing them!
yay :]

10 more days before i set off to Doulos in Batangas, Philippines :]
the excitement hasnt quite reached me...
but i think/hope it will soon :]

BUT there is something that's getting me all paranoid...
my friends said yesterday that the A level results
are likely to be released on 2 March...
in that case i'll be receiving my results
on the ship
through a long distance call back to singapore...

AHH!

and i had a nightmare about the A level results... again...

the first time i dreamt about it, i had A D E!
which was/is terrible!
i was crying in a random toilet of a nice hotel in my dream
*very random*

then i dreamt about it last night
and i had *more specifically*
A for math, C for chemistry, and E for econs!
still as bad...!
i was staring at my certificate for the longest time
(it was in a very strange format!) trying to figure out my results...
then i looked for my gp grades and i thought i saw "A4"...
then i looked closer and saw "B3"...

*do dreams EVER make sense?*

but anyway... my econs teacher came up to me with a smile
and asked me what i got for econs...
and i was so ashamed that all i said was "i'm so sorry... i'm so sorry"
and i locked myself in my room and cried some more
*my econs teacher was in my living room area for some reason
when she asked me about my results*

and you know how in your report book,
your teacher always gives a few sentences
at the bottom of the report card?
for some strange reason at the bottom of my certificate,
my teacher wrote the comment "with compliments"

A C E with B3? and i get complimented for it?

ahhh i hope my dreams are NOT going to come true...

but times like that remind me of how i dreamt 2 years ago
that my friend had AAB for her A levels...
and she really did get AAB...

AHHH!

blog revival :]

hello :] i decided to revive the blog... yippee?

it's been more than 4 months since i last blogged...
so many things have taken place...
all the events are clumped in a lump in my head...
and i'm trying to dissect it now so that i can list it out...
*sits and thinks hard*

A levels are over!

ok that piece of news is ancient...

well the A level results are gonna be released soon!
but i doubt i'd be in singapore to receive the results myself...
i'd be sailing with Doulos by that time *i think*!


The MV Doulos

Doulos, under the Christian organization Operation Mobilisation (OM), may be totally unheard of to some of you. It is recognised in the Guinness Book of World Records as the world's oldest active ocean-going passenger ship *2 years younger than the titanic!* quite cool eh? :] If i'm not wrong... it's also one of the largest floating book fairs (if not the biggest)! It carries a stock of half a million books with about 4000 different titles and really low prices... super cool eh? :D

Doulos is a private, non-profit, charitable organization registered in Germany. It visits port cities throughout the world, supplying vital literature resources, encouraging inter-cultural understanding, training young people for more effective life and service, promoting greater global awareness, providing practical aid and sharing a message of hope in God wherever there is opportunity. Its purpose – to bring knowledge, help and hope to the people of the world.

i'll be away from singapore for 2 months:

25 Feb – 6 Mar: Batangas, Philippines
9 Mar – 27 Mar: Kaohsiung, Taiwan
28 Mar – 18 Apr: Taichung, Taiwan
19 Apr – 29 Apr: Keelung, Taiwan

during this 2-month long mission trip,
i'd also be put into one of the ship's departments:
either accommodation or kitchen.

from what i know, accommodation is like hotel room service
the job scope includes:
vacuuming *hmmm...*
changing bedsheets *huh?*
cleaning the toilets (ahhhhhhhhh!)
and the like...

and from what i know, kitchen is like... kitchen work *haha*
the job scope includes:
peeling potatoes and whatever needs to be peeled *i like i like!*
cutting and chopping food *i want i want!*
cooking *yay!*
washing 1200 over plates, cups and pieces of cutlery *noooooooooooooooooo*
and the like...

guess what's my obvious choice :]

well but i dont think it's up to me which department i want to be in...
although i was told that i could state my preference on the application form,
i wonder if that really helps...

i was praying very hard to God to put me in the kitchen department... then my sister said that perhaps the more i wanted to be put into the kitchen, the more God would put me into the accommodation department...
*God has a sense of humour too*

so then i tried to use reverse psychology on God and went
"God please put me into accommodation! i want to go accommodation!"
to which another friend asked
"what if you try to use reverse psychology on God but He doesn't reverse?"

......that's it la... i think i'm headed for the accommodation department......

i guess i'll keep trying to update this blog... i'd really want you guys to have a share in my experiences on the ship :] but i dont think there's internet connection from the ship... not sure how things will go... just keep me in your prayers will you? :]

yay this is short(er)... goody :]

i'm a kid :]

guess what i've been doing?

what i do best... go missing in action :]

nah... its the prelims... ac is uniquely ac... prelims start right after the national day while every other jc starts theirs only after the september holidays...

everyone's been asking me about how the papers went... if the papers went well, i'd be happy to reply that i was able to handle them... but unfortunately they were quite the contrary... the prelims were horrible like they're meant to be... i hope that wraps up the whole 3 weeks of prelims in a sentence... do NOT ask me about it again *growl*

its been the holidays since the last paper on tuesday *29 aug*... technically la... we had teachers day celebrations on thursday... i made cheesecake! :] usually i'd make it into one whole square tray... but this time i had to split it into 15 little bowls... had a really tiring time packing the biscuit base into 15 bowls... measuring the amount spoon by spoon... but baking's my favourite past time! no matter how long it took, i still enjoyed the process :]

to round it off happily, nobody suffered from tummyaches from consuming my cheesecake! :]

i went to pulau ubin with my classmates on wednesday! ^___________^ it was really fun... nothing much happened... we rode on bicycles... i had one on my own... hadnt cycled for years... *hmm... has it been 10 years already?*... cycled on rough terrains... walked the bicycle up steep hills... zoomed down the same steep hills uncontrollably and couldnt keep my feet on the pedals properly... had a close encounter with death... had another 5 more close encounters with death... went home aching all over *and smelly too*... but it was fun! :] albert when are we going back there again?

i was really excited about the trip the night before... i was totally clueless about what to wear or bring cos it'd been ages since i went on such excursions... papa used to bring our family to east coast park frequently when we were young... while jie, gor and i went cycling, mummy and daddy would have a picnic on the grasspatch... so romantic huh? :]

but that'd been more than 10 years ago... and as i was deciding my attire the next morning, my mum commented that i better wear jeans cos she expected me to fall and cut myself... *thanks for believing in me mummy...*... haha... so in my interest, she thought it'd be wise for me to put jeans on... but i thought it'd be really weird *and warm!*! so i kept asking different people what they'd wear if they went to pulau ubin... and i started asking charissa since she'd been there a few times with her class... "what do you wear? jeans? shorts? do you normally wear a cap?"... and she went "can you not sound like a primary 1 kid going to the zoo for the first time?!"

*bashful face* i'm sorry ok! >.<

i went for a little haircut... and that little bit of haircut cost me $20! so terrible... the hairdresser was trying to convince me to buy some hair-improvement products... like a small bottle that cost $30 odd... and she recommended that i rebond my hair if i was interested... $180!! sheesh! my hair isnt like long... just a bit of rebonding for that little bunch of hair on my head costs $180?

hmm... but there ARE occasional bad hair days *hmm... correction: frequent bad hair days... occasional REALLY bad hair days* where i either feel like rebonding my hair or shaving bald... on an impulse... i'd stand in front of the mirror and keep combing my hair... i wonder why it doesnt get even a little straighter after i've combed it a thousand times in the same downward direction... its so irritating! >.<

anyway after i returned from the haircut, the best thing was that my mum came into my room and went "did you cut your hair? where?"

$20 for an unnoticeable change... glad i only had to pay $10... gor paid the rest of it :] his present to me before he enters the army... *wails*

its quite sad... my brother's going into the army!! :'[ never really thought such a day would come so soon... after he goes, i'd be like the only child left in the family... jie's still somewhere out there... she wont be back till next year... guess i'd be quite lonely and sad with no one to talk to... sigh... and no one to chauffeur me around anymore... SIGH...

i'm inheriting some things from my brother before he leaves on thursday... the first thing he put down under my name in his imaginary will was...

the mop.

we had a little handover ceremony... my brother held the mop horizontally at its two ends and stood in front of me... i knelt down like a knight with my head bowed down and lifted my hands to receive my mandate [reluctantly]...

actually i thought i'd be able to escape my housewife-destiny by hiding the mop away from my mum... but i kinda forgot a very obvious solution to that situation... mummy will just buy a new mop... :[

hmm nothing interesting to report on my life lately... maybe its time to update my scrolling random useless facts at the bottom of the screen... haha... i'm really bored at home! there's no one to play with cos everyone is studying for their exams...

oh no i sound like a primary school kid again...

*shrugs* :]

charissa-cherlyn-limin-sarah-velda day

for the first time in my life yesterday, i kinda did flag day... since sec 1 till now, i've always had choir *sch and church* on saturdays... so i was never free to do flag day...

actually i didnt know i was going to do that... i thought all i had to do was sell CDs... the CDs were a compilation of songs by local bands going at $15 each... i sent out help signals to friends in my address book and they kinda fell victim to that... but hey, maybe the songs on the CD arent that bad :]

anyway so i managed to sell 5 of them... *with special recognition to clara, timothy, jessica, felicia and alex*... so during our free time, wanli, huetheng and i tried to ask for donations along the streets of orchard... but the whole stretch of orchard was filled with people like us! students holding those tins that people shun [or the really flat plastic bags with a little slit near the top that can hold more money than you think] were everywhere! its like every 15 steps you took, you'd meet someone coming up with a big smile asking "hello! would you like to donate to...."

i was quite horrified... and i refused to do such a hateful job... wanli says for such jobs, you just have to be really thick skinned... just stick to people even if they try to walk away... i dont want to do that... i dont want to be that kind of person that people walk away from...

so i sat down at the side... and after a while wanli also came to sit... cos given our not-so-strategic area... people would have walked past a thousand other students asking for donations before reaching us... so owing to bad business, we kind of gave up...

then there came these 2 nanyang girls who looked quite disappointed... and they stood in front of us... with the slightest bit of attempt to be enthusiastic, they raised up their tins and asked "hi... would you like to donate?"

wanli and i looked at each other... then both of us took out our flat plastic donation bags and told them "we're just like you..."

but wanli suggested that we donate to each other... wanli donated to the nanyang girl standing in front of her, and that nanyang girl also donated to wanli...

i search my wallet for coins... but i already donated my very last 2 coins to none other than myself... *i didnt want to return an empty donation bag at the end of the day... having 2 coins to give the corner of the bag a few millimeters of width is better than nothing*... and the smallest change i had was a $2 note... the nanyang girl in front of me gave me 70 cents i think... and she was waiting for me to donate to her... i was rather reluctant to give the $2... i'd have preferred to split it into small change so that i could donate to other students who came along...

but she told me "oh... you can buy the collar pin i'm selling with $2"... and i thought "grr... fine"... so after a long pause i finally stuffed the dollar note into her tin... i turned to keep my wallet and everything... and when i looked up, the nanyang girls were gone...

you know what that means? that means she walked off after my donation...... without giving me the collar pin that i paid for!!

i feel cheated

must flag day be the best form of charity? i mean its the most frequent community involvement project around... as crude as it sounds, to me, it just feels like begging on the streets... i really think its not a good approach... singaporeans have been faced with this for too many years... such that they're all immune to it and they no longer feel guilt-ridden for rejecting some earnest (or maybe not so earnest) students, standing in the hot sun, trying to get rid of their stickers in exchange for coins... i thought the CD selling was not a bad idea... at least you get something in return... plus it gives singaporean bands a platform to perform and be recognised...

this shall be the first and the last time i'm doing flag day *upset*

mummy and gorgor went to visit jie in malaysia... so that meant that i had the whole house to myself for the past 3 days *since thursday night*... its not very fun staying home alone... it feels strange when theres no one at home to talk to... not like i usually do... but now that nobody's home, it just feels strange... like after i switch off the television, the whole house is dead silent... and i keep having to switch on some lights elsewhere before i switch off the lights at the living room... and i repeat the process until i finally reach my room after being guided by all the lights on the way there from the living room... sad...

i'm super glad that gorgor brought home our speakers from church *how did OUR speakers land up in church anyway*... cos listening to my mp3 with earphones were hurting my ears... cant find a position to stick the earphones into my ears comfortably... then it struck me - i should plug the speakers into my mp3!! and i did... so now i have a "surround sound system" in my room :] i feel super smart... its less lonely... and i feel safer that way

i realised that, as far as i can remember, i have never slept alone before 8l ... so when the time finally came for me to face it, i was rather uneasy about it... well i hope it wasnt a waste of electricity... but i kept the lights on while i slept :] i'm just utilising the eletricity that would have been used if my brother had been at home *bedroom lights, laptop power, radio power, xbox games* or my mum for that matter *tv drama serials, news, bedroom light, kitchen stove*

i havent had to touch the stove... in fact when wai ling asked what i'd been eating for the past few days... i thought for a very very long time and remarked "hmm... i dont think i ate (much)..."... haha

i ate half a packet of carrot cake for dinner on thursday night... i finished the other half for dinner on friday night... i reluctantly ate Mcs for dinner on saturday night... i dont eat breakfast... i only eat lunch in sch... but even then... i tried fasting on friday... so i didnt eat anything... but i realised i broke my fast when i ate hongjie's birthday cake... then i fasted again on saturday... but i ate 4 small egg rolls... does that nullilfy my fast again? :x

although i saved money on food... it was channelled somewhere else... my favourite mode of transport :]

not having my mum or brother around has increased my dependency on taxis... call me pampered... taxis are my next best friend... i took a taxi to sch on friday morning... and a taxi to church today... i almost wanted to take a taxi to town yesterday... but the bus came *shrugs*

well i forgot to bring my ez link card today... realised that at the bus stop when i was going home after church... and i was groaning away cos i bet the driver wouldnt believe that i'm still schooling since i'm dressed in going-out clothes... but when i got on the bus, i still decided to try anyway... cos the uncle looked quite nice...

so i asked, "uncle do you believe that i'm a student?" he smiled... and i thought "YAY! he's going to let me pay student fare!" then he asked me where i was going... i said near farrer... and while he was still thinking of a reply, it occurred to me: why did he even ask me that question?...

then i realised... i'm not getting any discount... uncle doesnt believe me... *grrr*...

"$1.10 to farrer"... sheesh... well velda paid for me... and as i walked to collect my ticket and move to the back of the bus, i whined "but i'm really a student......"

i hope he heard me

i need to study!! prelims start on 14 august! everyone's like "SO EARLY? mine's after sept hols"... sad to say... mine's just after national day...

well on the topic of national day, velda sarah and i started to sing this national day song that raffles girls primary and henry park used to sing together on our combined national day celebrations... let me teach you!

the 9th of august is a holiday
we dont have to go to school
we all can play

i'm dressed in my best
especially for today
hip hip hooray!
its our national day!

today is the birthday of singapore
we will celebrate this year like never before
i dont know how it started but i know its true
singapore the home for me and you

so we sing:

happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday, happy birthday

hip hip hooray!
its our national day!

quite cool huh? well but i still dont have a good impression of rgps girls... i mean with the exception of velda and sarah... i still bear a tiny grudge against that rgps prefect who came up to me after i bought 2 yupi gummy burgers from their canteen, nudged me, and went "excuse me, you're not supposed to buy food from our canteen"...

*jaw drops*

or when i was at the fitness corner and i needed to know the time... being watch-less, i mustered my courage and approached these 2 rgps girls playing at the side... so i, in my most harmlessly polite tone, asked "excuse me, may i know what the time is?"... the girl looked at her watch and replied quite sarcastically, "excuse me... it's 2.30 now"

*teary eyes with wobbly lips*

what have i done to deserve this? sheesh

but nevermind... at least my friends arent like that :] i was just telling charissa as she, cherlyn, sarah, velda and i were walking out of church towards the bus stop, "hey! i'm so glad that we're such good friends... i feel like a part of a girl gang!"

well... its a sudden realisation that was there all along...

it was so rare that we'd walk out to the bus stop together... cos i always get fetched home [utilising my privilege of being my brother's sister]... and plus ALL of us ate kfc today *how rare is that! SARAH? eating kfc? the pigs flew today...* charissa didnt join us for lunch but apparently she was eating kfc during her potluck party in class... so yay... i'm declaring today [in alphabetical order] the charissa-cherlyn-limin-sarah-velda day :]

we'll keep this name until we find a more pleasant alternative

thank God for friends like them :]

i'm different. i think. [a question, a statement, or a proclamation?]

24 hours is such a short period of time... then again... i guess i wont want it to last too long either...

there comes this seemingly ordinary day every year... that is special only to yourself... where you'd sit in front of any time-telling machine at 11 plus pm and patiently/impatiently watch the hands tick... until both of them meet and point at the number 12... only to have the second hand continue wiping the face of the clock again...

somehow... sometimes... you wait for that anticipated moment at the strike of midnight... perhaps you imagine a rush that will overcome you... maybe you expect to burst out in joy and exclamation... or you probably imagine some sensational magical moment to just fill you at the strike of the new day...

or do you quietly acknowledge that the date on your handphone has jumped a number... and then continue doing whatever you had been working on?

i was imagining the first scenerio... but the second one happened...

i had a sudden realisation a few months back... that somehow, birthdays dont seem like a very big affair as time passes by...

somehow birthdays just seem to get increasingly insignificant... it comes to such a point where i no longer go around in excitement exclaiming "MY BIRTHDAY'S COMING!"... rather, i just silently think to myself "hmm... my birthday's coming..."

birthdays are such that you receive loads of msgs that come flooding in at midnight... and many conversation boxes on msn pop up one after another... maybe you receive a few phone calls from friends more anxious and excited about your birthday than you are... presents start to appear... much attention is given to you that day...

but it seems that that's the only thing that differentiates it from any other day... all these portions that bring joy... somehow i still feel like there's something missing...

perhaps excitement fades off with time and age... the moment i countdown to my birthday... i start the next countdown to the end of that day... the day comes and the day passes...

perhaps trying to preserve a birthday is like trying to catch water with a sieve...

well the day has passed... its 1 july... someone else's birthday is going to come along... and they're going to have many things happen to them just like how 30th june 2006 has been really eventful for me... many delightful surprises... or at least they attempted to surprise me... but the surprises never fail to unwrap itself before its show time :]

it's been a happy day... i AM happy (believe it or not)... well... not in a very literal sense that i'm beaming at the computer screen now... but in my heart i know i'm content and that i appreciated everything that went on today (and yesterday... go sopranos!)... i guess it's quite comforting when people do remember your birthday :] and they go through trouble to make it special... thanks people! :] you guys are great friends...

its kind of a sad thing to say on my birthday... or rather 1 day later... but it just seems like reality... not that i'm particularly upset about it... its just a discovery... a realisation...

i'm too naive

jewliang says we learn something new everyday... everything we learn can be used to construct ourselves positively... depends on how you want to see it...

i don't live for myself... i don't make decisions so that i'll get what i want... i dont like it if everything's just about me me me... there's so much more to life than this...

well jus to side track my ears are failing me... i hear many things... except important things that make a difference... its not as if i refuse to hear it... but i just seem to miss it out when everyone else around me have heard it... oh my...

and having gone through that one special day... i'm just left with an all new version of the definition of friends...

just a simple question/statement/memory trigger: what are friends for?

stiff neck day *bleh*

holidays are the only time i'll ever blog more than 3 times in a week... miracle days... which wont last very long i think... haha...

man i woke up with a stiff neck today... super painful! i cant look up or look to the right or look down... so i've either been looking dead straight or to the left today... grrr! and worse still my mum and my brother keep making fun of me...

i was studying in the room and my brother purposely stood at the door *which was on my right* and kept calling me from there... and then i had to swivel the chair 90 degrees before i could see him... and he started running around me to make me turn my head in the direction that i obviously cant...

and my mum too! she tilts her head to one side as if she sprained her neck... and talks to me in that frozen position... SO TERRIBLE RIGHT! and the 2 of them had so much fun imitating my immobile state...

i hope i heal by tmr... the pain is so overwhelming that i burst out in laughter every time i try to look right/up/down...

equation of the day: pain = funny

i wonder why... but i've been peculiarly happy today... i havent idled and not felt guilty about it in a long time... i havent laughed while watching the tv in an even longer time... hmm maybe its cos of the extreme pain that's kept me laughing at myself the whole day... but i'm happy like that... if only this feeling follows me to sch from next week on...

there are a hundred and one things i want/wanted this june holidays...
1. write a new song
2. bake
3. do a jigsaw puzzle
4. watch the dvd i borrowed from deborah =.=
5. sort out all my letters that i've kept from primary 1 till now

talking about sorting letters... it was so heartwarming to read letters that my friends wrote to me... *you know how girls like to write to each other although we see each other in school everyday*... christmas cards... chinese new year cards *chinese new year cards?!*... birthday cards......

i laid my hands on this certain red card with hearts on the cover *hmm* and which had this lumpy pop-up at the centre... a familiar feeling came over me... *i kind of remember this card...*... and i flipped it open... to my surprise, the musical card actually still worked! the tune of happy birthday came ringing loud and clear, resounding through the super quiet room and the even more silent house *well it was midnight already*... what a good quality card! or rather a good quality battery... after all it's been *counts* 9 years? haha... i got that card from my friend from chinese dance in primary 4... i think her name is melissa ____ mei mei... cant remember her surname... haha :]

do you keep a file of all the certificates you've gotten since primary school till now? well i do... my mum encouraged me to do that... and i even had to use 2 files! *wow what does that say? not much... arent you going to ask me how many pockets there are in each file? heh* well and i came across this piece of paper that meant so much to me... i read all the positive comments the examiner wrote... i looked at the generous amount of marks he showered on me... then i thought about part 2 of that... february 19 2005... and i'd rather not think about it anymore...

sometimes when you've reached a peak in your life... you've to be very careful being so high up there... because the higher you climb, the deeper you fall... and such a fall might leave a permanent mark in your life, keeping you in a shadow you cant really shake off... *fact of life*

then again there are other things to look forward to... i guess lessons can be learnt out of everything... what can i learn out of my mum's disapproval of me getting 2 guinea pigs for my 12th birthday from a classmate? the answer: that i'd be getting a hamster instead! :] *and that started my hamster craze that lasted for 4 years*

man my neck hurts......

self discovery

You Are 10% Evil

You are good. So good, that you make evil people squirm.Just remember, you may need to turn to the dark side to get what you want!

How Evil Are You?

How You Life Your Life

You are honest and direct. You tell it like it is.You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.You prefer a variety of friends and tend to change friends quickly.You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable.

How Do You Live Your Life?

Your Career Type: Artistic

You are expressive, original, and independent.Your talents lie in your artistic abilities: creative writing, drama, crafts, music, or art. You would make an excellent: Actor - Art Teacher - Book Editor Clothes Designer - Comedian - Composer Dancer - DJ - Graphic DesignerIllustrator - Musician - Sculptor The worst career options for your are conventional careers, like bank teller or secretary.

What's" Your Ideal Career?

You Are 39% Vain

Okay, so you're slightly vain from time to time, but you're not superficial at all. You are realistic. You know that looks matter. You just try to make them matter less.

How Vain Are You?

Your Brain's Pattern

You have a dreamy mind, full of fancy and fantasy.You have the ability to stay forever entertained with your thoughts.People may say you're hard to read, but that's because you're so internally focused.But when you do share what you're thinking, people are impressed with your imagination.

What Pattern Is Your Brain?

You Are Sunshine

Soothing and calmYou are often held up by others as the idealBut too much of you, and they'll get burned You are best known for: your warmth Your dominant state: connecting

What Type of Weather Are You?

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are secretly sensitive, but you often put up a front.Shy and private, you yearn for security.You take relationships slowly. You need lots of reassurances before you can trust.

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

You Are Emerald Green

Deep and mysterious, it often seems like no one truly gets you.Inside, you are very emotional and moody - though you don't let it show.People usually have a strong reaction to you... profound love or deep hate.But you can even get those who hate you to come around. There's something naturally harmonious about you.

What Color Green Are You?

i took all these quizzes a while back... guess i really had a lot of time to kill then... but hey! i think they're surprisingly pretty accurate...

went to watch RV (runaway vehicle) with mummy and gor today... it's a really good show! wasnt really happy when i stepped into the movie theatre cos we had really lousy seats... aisle seats on the extreme right of the cinema... SECOND ROW FROM THE FRONT!... and i sat at the innermost seat... which is the worst seat out of the three available... but oh well... shant fuss over it since we're all family... i guess thats the price you pay when you go up to the counter and ask for 3 joining seats at 2.17pm when the show starts at 2.20pm... *shrugs*

hmm i've learnt that cinemas are like refrigerators... freezing cold! i underestimated the budget the management would have on air conditioning in the cinemas at plaza singapura... so in the end gor had to give me his sweater... and sit on his hands for the 100min duration (or rather 120min cos of 20 min worth of rubbish advertisements...)... sorry gor!

i thought i wanted to type something.. but i forgot what... haha

reflections *specially for choir people* :]

man i feel like stoning myself for not maintaining this blog... *plucks up little pebbles from that foot massage thing at the fitness corner downstairs and throws them at the mirror*... does anyone still visit this anymore?

well it doesnt really matter... i'm my blog's biggest fan *beams*...

holidays arent holidays really... not when the teachers decide to leave remnants of themselves to constantly and lovingly remind us of their presence *or rather, absence* via little pieces of paper called homework......

you know... i've discovered something new about myself... i think i'm dyslexic... here's what www.dictionary.com defined dyslexia to be: A learning disorder marked by impairment of the ability to recognize and comprehend written words... hmm... actually mine's not a problem with written words... i read fine... but when i say stuff too quickly... it comes out in a *rearrange the words to form a sensible sentence* manner... i was out with my secondary school friend... just catching up with her after a year... and before we parted, i told her "next time you must tell more me ok!" and both of us went (8 l) ... (thats a face... tilt your head 90 degrees, sideways, to the left)

*sheesh i just stoned in my chair for 20 minutes wondering what to type...*

too many things have happened in the past 3 months i guess... so many that i cant put my finger to any of them...

choir is really over now... no more intensive practices... ever since AEWF... the concert was great! we *the sops* finally managed to do justice *well, nearly* to autumn landscapes *our "favourite" song*... haha... mrs wilson sent us a flying kiss when we sang our infamous na gu ku ma li ne munt... yay... so proud of you sops!

i was just talking to clement about our journey as a choir member... and even more so as a comm member... from stepping into a strictly disciplined environment... to restraining ourselves from falling asleep *coughs... jontang... coughs... mark... coughs... basses... sniggers*... learning the meaning of sincerity, excellence, and humility at the same time... absorbing advice that sometimes seemed to pass through one ear and out the other... the emotional high of achievements *which dont last too long, really*... understanding the meaning of giving back and wanting to serve... staring at the comm form and deciding if we're ready for it...

and before long, it leads us to unforgettable comm interviews... intimidating elections... overwhelming emotions on getting in... struggles through the initial months of reaching expectations and rising to our positions... learning things the hard way... gradually getting the hang of how things function... delivering performances with greater ease... welcoming our juniors and guiding them on this rocky journey... the anxiety in teaching impossible music *we conquered enduken!*... the disappointment in falling short of expectations... the stress of being through a music crisis *the dummies guide: how to master karimatanu in 2 hours*... the pain of being the section that is dragging the team down... the hope of a better sound at good practices (that come once in a BLUE MOON *sniggers*)... the assurance that the juniors are starting to understand what we mean by trust, friendship, and identity... the comfort that they are now ready to venture without us holding on to their hands... the heartwrenching moments when we wave and say "bye..."...

a long winding journey that we set foot on with uncertainty a year ago, ends *in a way* for us now... sure, we'll be back as alumni... but that in itself flips open a new chapter... and things just wont be the same anymore... the comm interviews have been held... the choir's going on a tour to london and wales *why cant they leave a day later*... and soon the j1s will be teaching their juniors to step out of their little worlds and learn the intangible lessons that music brings... really cant put my finger to it... but its a feeling that all of us share and can concur with... i'm sure :]

i love night time... it just gets me into this melancholic mood... and it sets me reminiscing about many things...

i've come a long way :]

very interesting tests :] try them!

boooo! :]

i logged on to clear my junk mail at 4... intended to have a really happy nap at 4.30... but i ended up viewing lots and lots of those nonsensical funpages which unfortunately never fail to interest me... and then i started surf my friend's blogs... and also to clear those inactive links on my blog (my friends' blogs which have ceased to function anymore)... and i realised many dont work anymore *shrug*... so i deleted all of them... muahaha! :p

blah! its like 6.48pm already! what happened to my nap man... sigh...

well anyway while i was looking at my junior's blog *wanling the bananamangoauntie-janey*... and saw the many tests from blogspot she took... and being a really really right brained person... the interesting interpretations from the tests got me... well... interested... so i tried one... after another... after another......

i'm really a good procrastinator...

well anyway here are some results of the tests i took... i think they're quite amazingly accurate...

You Are Likely a Third Born

At your darkest moments, you feel vulnerable. At work and school, you do best when you're comparing things. When you love someone, you tend to like to please them. In friendship, you are loyal to one person. Your ideal careers are: sales, police officer, newspaper reporter, inventor, poet, and animal trainer. You will leave your mark on the world with inventions, poetry, and inspiration.

The Birth Order Predictor

i dont like that last paragraph to this set of results...

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is traditional. Without saying anything, both of you communicate with your hearts. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage. In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self centered.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

i'm not self centered...... am i....? :(

oo i've got a hawaiin name!

Your Hawaiian Name is:

Kamea Keilana

What's your Hawaiian Name?

EEE... i feel so cheated... i found this "what's your jap name" and i tried it... and when i accidentally pressed back... i had to click enter again... and then it kept giving me different names! this thing is such a cheater... grr...

hmm there was this test called "how weird are you"... i'm 60% weird... haha! what rubbish is that...

Your Scholastic Strength Is Inspiring Others

You are great at developing a vision, and getting others to adopt your way of thinking. You are talented at leading, balancing tasks, and helping people work together. You should major in: Counseling Environmental studies Law Social work Political science Nursing

What Should You Major In?

yay... i passed maths! *points down*

You Passed 8th Grade Math

Congratulations, you got 10/10 correct!

Could You Pass 8th Grade Math?

You Are 20% Boyish and 80% Girlish

Even if you're not a girl, you're very feminine. You're in touch with your feelings, and your heart rules you. A bit of a emotional roller coaster, one moment you're up and the next you're down. But no matter what, you try to be as cute and perky as possible.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

HAHA! ok thats the last one... this is getting embarrassing......

oh well... i probably shouldnt trust any of these... they're just like some little quizzes to help pass time... but its quite fun nonetheless... :]

perhaps you could try some of these too... if you're as free as i
was! :]